To feel sad & jealous & gutted & desperate & useless sometimes.

[gigglepin]

I cant express it. I cant explain it.
People just dont get how lucky they are to just have a + test and then a healthy progressing pregnancy.

Its all over for me, there will be no more for me, but every now and again, i just feel and a bit desperate.

Sorry, self indulgent and maudling. Im not normally but today im feeling it.

I don't know what to say except ((hugs)) but I couldn't leave this unanswered.

Dont care if its un-mumsnety

more

ahh my love, hug from me too

Will distraction work? ...things you can't dream about with a new baby on the way

exotic holidays to places where you need heaps of jabs
luxe clothes...think beautiful cashmere sweater etc etc
cheese
wonderful wine
impossibly high heels
etc
etc

none of which compare even in the slightest
No, unfortunately on days like this, no manner of distraction helps...(not EVEN chocolate )

Sorry to see you like this. I too to a very long time, and was told not too! But I now have 3 huggable boys. Focus on the things in life which really matter today. Life does threw some really nasty things. If you have time, get distracted. Perhaps offer to help out at a local school as a reader, or help at a play centre or church group. Good help is always needed, and most mums attending will (once they know you) welcome the opportunity to have a cup of coffee, while you hold thier bundle of joy!
I do understand were you are comming from, not only did it take over 10 years to get pregnant, I then also lost a child as well. Be posative, and find an outlet for yourself, you are not alone, and you will turn a corner when you are ready.
What you feel is very natural, get a good nights sleep, and see where you are in the morning.

Couldn't let this pass unanswered either.

My BF had six m/c's before her healthy daughter and my first daughter died when she was a baby and it took me nearly 10 years to have a healthy child.

It is completely understandable to feel sad & jealous & gutted & desperate - but not useless. Because you really aren't.

Thanks every one.

Feels like a ton of bricks around my neck today. Just the sadness is overwhelming.
Every where i look i see pregnant women or babies everywhere..
mostly i deal with it reasonably well. Today i keep filling up.

YANBU to feel that way but YABU to feel useless.

I can remember feeling the same way and I could cry for you. You are fully entitled to an off day - coping is overrated sometimes.