To think I'm never good enough

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I've namechanged for this in case anyone 'knows' me. I work as a TA, just taking on a new role, working with lots more children than I did before. I started doing one to one, and had great success with it, but the child moved on and now I've just been given a bunch of kids to work with.

I feel so responsible I'm starting to feel overwhelmed. They're all struggling and I'm providing different interventions for them. They are mostly kids with special educational needs and in planning what I'd do with them tomorrow I suddenly realised, I'm not good enough for this.

I'm willing...I'm keen...I have great rapport with the kids, but I'm a rookie. How can I ever be good enough?

Is it normal to feel like this???? Or do I go in tomorrow and quit my job rather than risk getting it wrong?

Oh god, you are doing an extremely valuable job that quite frankly lots of people couldn't do.
Just a crisis of confidence, don't give up.
Something will happen soon that will give you so much satisfaction you will know why you do it.
Now get your ass to work tomorrow and do more good work :)

From your post you sound ideal for the job; caring, thoughtful and responsible. All new jobs feel intimidating initially, just take each day at a time; you will be fine!

Thank you both so much. I've tried to say more, but I'm feeling like my foot and my mouth are a bit too close to each other. And I'm tuckered out. Perhaps sleep will be for the best.

My friend is a TA also doing lots of intervention too. She found it took a lot of time planning and finding resources (and not getting paid extra). Possibly ask a teacher to point you in the direction of resources or a decent website so that it is not such an onerous task.

Remember you can only do your best! The children are lucky to have your extra support. Don't doubt yourself!!