Here's my issue I don't know if I'm suddenly suffering with pmt,have mild depression or just tired or just not a nice person. I keep lurching into really low moods and it takes a day or two to get back to being bubbly and bright again, I dont even have the will to talk to dh about it, even though he is the best I just keep it all in and tell him to bear with me when I'm having a downer. Normally these lows are triggered by something but I feel like I have no friends and no one to talk to. Heres this weekends story...
On a girlie weekend when the friendly banter starts aimed at me I respond...friend 1 retaliates with a really angry vicious response...we're all a bit taken about but gloss over it and are chatting away. Inside i'm having the dilemma..should I just pack my bags and go....it took all my common sense to work though it.after a great day and evening we "lost" another of our group and as we were moving on elsewhere I called her only to find she'd left her phone at home and her jealous (after she'd had an affair...another story) husband picked it up, several calls later from him we found her but I said we' tried to call her she went mad asking why on earth I'd called her....anyway this tipped me over the edge I went outside just to cool off when friend 1 came out and had a real go at me and told me to sort myself out all quite full on. I went back to where we staying, didn't speak again and got up and left at 9am.i of course feel shit but not sure why I'm in the firing line. In all this I haven't shouted at anyone but deliberately kept my mouth for fear of saying something I'd regret.
But... Instead of just laughing about it I can't and feel like hiding away from the world.... On the spiral of decline as I call it. That's one example it doesn't take something as girly as that tale normally but the effect is the same.