To feel a bit [hmm] about this pregnancy

[ViviPru]

Just found out BiL & SiL are expecting DC2 (planned). I'm because they have just moved in with my PiLs due to work relocation, their financial circumstances and inability to sell their flat. No-one knows how long this arrangement will continue.

I'm usually very live and let live and couldn't give a fig what they do, but this touches a nerve as DP and I are delaying having DCs, in part due to our feeling that our current circs are not conducive (something about which I feel rather ambiguous)

I'm not jealous of them but I AM envious of their ability to decide to get pg again seemingly without giving much consideration to their situation. Its happening now and I'm going to a positive and supportive beacon of auntyhood but can't help but feel a bit deep down. I just need to get over myself, don't I. :(

Thanks, Lydia.

Comforting to know someone's in the same boat Wildfig - I don't know anyone else in my circumstances other than colleagues with whom I wouldn't discuss anything this personal with.

My nephew is a little peach but I certainly wouldn't trade places, as I said, I am by no means envious of them per se.

I would get SMP, Mama, (spit in the proverbial that it is) we'd probably manage, but I would feel horrifically vulnerable taking a break from my regular clients while everything is so up in the air and DP having no income. I have the utmost confidence that his business is going to soar, but until he starts sending out some blummin invoices, life is officially on hold. Hence not even going there mentally, let alone thinking about bringing things forward.