So over the last few weeks, ive met up with pals, just for an hour, catch up and coffee on my own.
Without exception i have been questioned about "wheres ds"?
When i explain he is with dh (A teacher and off for 6 weeks) they seem put out that i dont take hm every where with me. Especially, it seems, if they have kids with them.
But i cant be doing with it, i want a quiet coffee without being interupted and shouted at and stressing about what he is doing/breaking/upsetting/doing wrong the whole time. He is hardwork, even harder when around other folk so i leave him with dh.
Thinking about it, i dont think that any one i work with have ever met ds and he is 8 now.
Unless we go to a specific play place, then i tend to avoid as much as possible, taking him any where with me 
when it means i am going to be stressed by him
I had severe PND and have never been good with children of any description.I have questioned attention deficit becuase he is unlike any child i have known, and very unlike any of my friends children.
I spent months when he was a toddler staying in the house becuase i could not cope with him out side.
I feel judged and like i am crap allot of the time.