This should be in relationships but I need advice now. (Will put it there later)
I am a regular but have name changed, if you notice anything about me please don't out me.
So background; me and p have had so much trouble this last 2 years, we got together and had dd after only a few months (yes I know,accident) over the last 2 years we have moved several times, had awful living conditions and landlords. We have had redundancy and lost jobs (both of us)
When I had dd I got very depressed and a year later voluntary sectioned myself for a week at the mental health unit. I was scared of myself and what was happening to our family. Anyway that all happened and iv been on tablets ever since. I am taking a new direction in career now and had a lengthy discussion with my doctor, health visitors and family about my tablets which make me feel so tired all the time. We all agreed I would very very slowly wean off them to get my energy back. All fine everything going great.
Untill last sunday when p went into some rebellious crazed drunken state within the space of 3 hours. He came home said some very vile things and scared me and dd. I had to beg him to leave for everyones safety. We talked and he just said he was stressed and that he is sorry.
Then yesterday comes along. All the riots are going on and we have a warning in our area, he hadn't charged his phone and didn't leave work till late cue me worrying why it has taken over an hour to do a usual 15 minute journey so I call my mum and I ask her to just have a drive over and see if she can see him (in case he is hurt). He gets home finally and I said I have been worried about you and why is he not keeping his phone charged (he lives on it usually) he went ballistic at me. Shouting swearing the lot.
He mentions my depression and calls me names saying he doesn't forgive me and that he can't stand me. He then drops the bombshell that he hasn't loved me for months, he doesn't forgive me for my depression and the fact we don't have sex
So what do I do now then?? How the fuck to I sort this mess? How do I look my dd in the face knowing I am responsible for ruining her life??
My mum is fuming after everything we've been through I get this, his family are vile and look for reasons to hate me even more.