arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I am having a scream who wants to join me?

[TheLadyEvenstar]

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i shall join in. i cracked today. failed most of my uni exams. its only first year and doesn't count but after horrendous PND have tied my entire self esteem to my degree did brill in coursework its exams i suck at. have had stress with the bloody holiday DH booked thinking booking it was all there was to it, no worries of clothes, suncream etc finding the money for everything, and getting a passport for DD has proved hell. plus general everyday stress and worries. it all got on top of me today and i cracked. several times actually, at uni, the passport office, on the motorway, at my mums. DD was being a usual near two year old and i couldn't cope with her any longer in my state, she was promptly taken to granny's house and mummy given a low dose diazepam and a lie down. still feel like im swimming in treacle. i feel like i thought i had rebuilt myself up after all my mental health problems but now i think it was all held together with pritt stick and has come crashing down around me. i don't know whether i should scream, cry, throw my self off a bridge, take to drink or take a giant sleeping tablet and hope that i wake up and find it all to have been a bad dream.

thank you for letting me vent. i have called mental health team.

Maig, its a bastard when you get days like tht isn't it?

thank you its just sometimes all the small things pile on top of each other and you just cant take it any more.

it sometimes does but my concentration is limited to only feeling sorry for myself. i think i shall go to bed and hope i wake up in the morning less hysterical at least.