im pregnant and im so scared to the point im not sleeping with worry.
i have a DS who has just turned four (in may) and a DD who turned 1 in april.
i havent told DP yet but i know he will be over the moon. i am more scared of telling my family. although they are very supportive, me and DP are struggling a bit finacially. there is only my DPs minimum paid wage coming in and £550 per month goes on rent let alone food gas electric, etc etc (we have no debts tho)
im scared my family will say something that although not intended as nasty, will upset our news. they'd only be thinking of our best intrests. also my brother and his wife are desperatly TTC i wouldnt want to upset them. in my families opinion another mouth to feed is stupid, and irresponsible.
loads of people inc family have said since DD was born "ooooh a boy and a girl how lovely, no need for anymore now then!" which has always hurt me although i never let on.
i feel so scared and its making me question whether i am right having another baby or whether i am even ready if i feel like this?
am i being un-reasonable to think of my options regarding a termination?? i need to be sure before telling DP as a Termination will not be up for discussion with him.
sorry if this is in wrong place, and sorry for spelling errors xx