I'm a single parent, exh left when I had DS (now aged 3) having announced at the start of the pregnancy that he 'couldn't do this'.
I'm now in a lovely relationship with a really awesome guy, been dating for nearly a year and I'm really happy....but he's admitted he's not sure he will want a baby of his own. I'm 37, all my friends now have baby number 2 and are all living the baby years again and looking so happy (and knackered but that's by the by).
I've tried to deny it, tried to pretend it doesn't exist but here it is: I'm so broody it physically hurts. I found some of my DS's babygrows and cried so much it's pathetic. I can't tell any of my friends as then it becomes real. I love being a mum (even though I'm a career girl) and I want to do it again like you wouldn't believe.
If I leave my fabulous bloke because I want a baby I know it'll break my heart and I'll never have the strength to start another relationship that means this much before my time for having a baby runs out. And I don't want to. I want a baby with him - but I want to know how it feels to have a baby with someone who wants to have a baby with me.
Will this feeling pass or will I always resent not having had the chance to have another baby? Or am I just a selfish cow, should I just be grateful that I have my one gorgeous DS and a bloke who finally makes me happy?
Help.........