I was out for lunch with Dh and dcs - we sat in the garden of the restaurant next to a table with a boy of about 19 who I think had cerebal palsy and his dad, they were having a good time and both laughing. I am pregnant with dc3 and I admit to bring a bit emotional looking at then. All of a sudden the not starting fitting - this is obviously quite a common occurs for him as the dad was very calm - I held his head still whilst the dad moved the wheelchair back from the table and the fit was short lived, self terminating and the boy became postictal so the dad carried on with his meal while the his son slept. I am a nurse so see fitting a lot but i sat back down and started shaking with emotion and the tears kept coming so I had to go inside to the toilet. I don't know why I was crying I think it was that their lunch together that was ruined and the Dads stoic acceptance of the situation, and the fact that i am pregnant and know how fragile life is, maybe a bit selfishly worrying about having a dc with a disability I think the dad saw me crying and I feel so bad that I behaved in this way. He said bye when they left by which time the son had woken up and had been watching my children and waving at them. Do you think the dad would have been disappointed with my behaviour?