A bit of background info - I will try to keep it short
I am on mat leave at the moment but I am due back to work in september, however, this is when DS will start at nursery school. Which I am worried will be all too much for the little chap to cope with. So to try to ease the situation, I have started DS at a pre-school as he has never been left anywhere like this, he has always been cared for by me, DH or my mum or sister.
However, I have been very worried about sending him as over the last few months he has become quite anxious and he struggles to deal with new environments, especially if we take him somewhere he has never been before e.g. a day trip somewhere. I think the arrival of DS2 hasnt helped. I just think the timing is not right, he doesnt seem emotionally fit at the moment ...
But I feel I have little choice, better now than in september when I am back at work.
So, today was his first day and it was just awful! He didnt cry when I left him initially, but when a walked past the window I could see he was crying. I expected this and tried not to worry. But when I picked him up 2 hours later he was still crying, he had worked himself up into a mess, and he was still sobbing the whole way home in the car. He keeps begging me not to take him back there again. But what has upset me most is he is having nightmares about it. He had a nightmare about it during his afternoon nap and he had one about an hour ago - he is screaming out "I want Mummy" in his sleep.
I feel as if I have traumatised him. DH thinks I shouldnt take him anymore and leave it until september, but i think as heartbreaking as it is maybe we should stick at it. AIBU to continue to send him - I know next time i take him, I will have to take him in kicking and screaming 