not to want a full time job?

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I have applied for a full time job about an hour and a half's drive away. I've got an interview and they say I am a strong candidate, but I dont know if I want it.
I havent worked full time for sixteen years. When I worked part time and the dcs were younger I found it very stressful and I was grumpy all the time. For the last five years I have cut right back and only done things that interested me and I could fit in easily. But I've always kept an eye out for a 'proper' job and made sure I was doing the kind of work/study that would get me back into one.
Now they are 14, 17 and 18 so I started looking, saw this ad and applied. I know that in this climate I would be very lucky to get this job. It's the sme kind of job as I did before (grumpily) but full time. My DH started off keen but thinks that it wouldnt make much difference financially after I had paid for petrol, help in the house, taxis for kids when we are both at work etc. The job itself would involve travelling in the area so even more driving.

But I do like getting out and meeting people, I do want to be a role model of a hard-working woman (and I currently work less hard than my teenager, just to be around when needed/ keep the house going), and I dont want to cling onto my children because I havent got anything after they leave. My 2nd dd says I am too much in her life and that is possible.

AIBU?

I'd be tempted to try it (assuming you get offered it that is!), as your kids are now of an age where full time work ought to be possible. If you hate it or it isn't for you, then it's much easier to find another job, or negotiate part time hours once you're already in a job.

However, the one thing that would put me off is the commute - 3 hrs a day is a LONG one. Are there other places you could work which are closer to home? It sounds like you're in a rural area, so it may be tricky - I am in a similar situation, and looking for a job, but I wouldn't commute for more than an hour each way.

I would stick with part time unless you NEED full time wages. Even voluntary work could be more flexible if you can manage without a second wage. once you get used to the money it will be hard to drop and you will be stuck doing it.

It sounds like you do want a job, but probably not this one. 3 hours is a very long commute, although I guess you did know that when you applied. Maybe you were subconsciously not really wanting this job, but deciding to get back into the idea of working full time.

I might be way off on that one though.