I have bipolar affective disorder, and i rapid cycle, pre meds i could skip from deliriously high to suicidally low in the space of thirty minutes. The docs havent been able to pin point when it started, I was often 'low' as a young teen. i experimented early with drugs and alcohol, I was always recless with my own life although not actually wanting to die, just not fased if that were to be a possible outcome of my actions. I had about 2 years of high mood where i honestly lived on the adrehnalin of my 'condition'. looking back now it was like a massive rollercoaster, constantly chasing a high. Not through drugs etal (although sometimes) but through experience. Starting a business, spending sprees, signing up to colleges for 15 courses at once, starting 3 jobs i a week, walking out of a job half way through a meeting. I was weird but i was enjoying it, well i wasnt but had a strong impulse that any second i was going to have a rush and that would see me through. I wouldnt eat for a week as i genuinely forgot and passed out on the bus. Then would spend the next week eating three takeout meals a day as i was starving with hunger pains!
All that was okay. I didnt feel there was anything wrong with me, i was having fun and i didnt care. It all hit me with suicidal lows in my first pregnancy, then extreme pnd. Then finally the early intervention team catching me mid high when i was 24. I'm 27 now, and the last three years have been all about the meds, Ive tried a whole host of meds until finally finding one that suits me, then ages messing about with the levels of meds to take. Finally feeling on a level again (well for the first time ever i supose) and some of the symptoms that came wioth the bipolar being untreated are slowly disappearing, the OCD issues are lessening, the agraphobia is still an issue but Im feeling readly to start to tackle it, same with the social phobia (i have only just in the last 4 months started to leave the house with my kids without my dh having to be with me and my DS is three and a half!) The whole experience was absolutly exhausting and terrifying, and its never going to be over.
However, with all that said, nobody knows i have this outside a very small circle of immediate family and friends. I feel it would be completely possible for a public figure to be able to hind this condition for a long time, and then after a spell in hospital would be able to get on with things again. If you've found the right medication and have a support system, however small, and know your triggers and the signs in your behaviour, you can deal with it you can be in control, the odd out burst seems impossible to avoid, and thats what CZJ may have just had? we wont know without her medical records really. Cant see why anyone would be pissed off with a sleb coming out with this illness, you wouldnt think that if they said they had cancer and there is know way you would know if that was true without medical records either 