Just don't know what to do for the best and am feeling daunted at the prospect of going back full time and doing long hours.
DS is just over 5 months. I'm due back at work at the end of June and we're waiting to hear about a nursery place for September (DH is a teacher and so will look after him full time over the summer).
I am well paid and earn nearly 3 times what DH does. However, my job involves long and often unpredictable hours. Work has offered me 3 days with fixed hours but this would involve a pay cut of more than 50%.
I could take the pay cut, we would just about be OK financially. BUT - this is why I am considering full time - we would like to move as currently we're in a tiny ex local authority, first floor flat in a bit of London we love. The flat is cramped and a bit grim though. We would like a bit more room for DS and to be on the ground floor so that he might have access to a bit of outdoor space. We could do this if I went back full time for about a year, saved a lump sum and got a back to work bonus. Lump sum plus equity in our flat would let us do it.
If I went back full time I would see DS in the morning and drop him at nursery. DH would collect and I might see him a couple of night s a week before he went to bed but no guarantee of that 
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I know I'm in a very privileged position to have the choice to go part time and that lots of women have no option but to go back full time. But AIBU to feel sad, conflicted and undecided? Would I miss out? Have no clue what to do and really struggling with the decision.