I was doing my PhD in biology when i had DD2, i alwas intended to go back to work. Lots of stuff happened, i got my PhD but i had a breakdown (not because of the phd) shortly after. I was a SAHM, but if i am honest it was because i wasn't confident enough to go back to work. I have been trying to get a job for a while now, i've not even looked at science jobs for over four years - i just never had the confidence, and science moves on quickly four years is a LONG time. I may as well not have my PhD. I have been applying for Admin jobs, Teaching assistant jobs, cleaning jobs, all at entry level, shit money etc.
Tonight, a throwaway comment by someone i chat to on facebook made me look at the new scientist website and i am sitting here shaking, i feel sick, almost at panic attack stage. WTF have i done, i am literally shaking. I saw two jobs that not only would i love to do, i'm qualified to do (but not directly) IF i were not out of the loop i would go for them, ignoring the fact that they are at the opposite end of the country! So in reality, even if i were looking for jobs like that i woudlnt go for those ones, but OMG, what is going on, im literally shaking.
Someone talk some sense into me, i've left it too long, ive no post doc experience, i should just go and get a job to help pay the mortgage and be done with it, but oh, if only................
I forgot that i loved science so much