To be dreading getting my period?

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I'm a bit LATE. At least I think I am. Being a muppet, when I changed the period calendar app thing I use, I deleted the old data, so I don't know exactly when my LMP was. I know it had nearly finished at Xmas though, and I'm sure the app said it should arrive on the 17th... But that may not have been accurate as I'd only had that app a month or two.

We have hardly had sex at all, always used a condom anyway, so logically it's unlikely, although both babies were conceived really easily.

Sorry. Waffling.

So, been scared I'm pregnant. Which would be a disaster really. Tiny two bed house, just started another OU course, fuck all money. Continue ad morning nauseum.

And yet, the last few days I've been trying to reassure myself that if we do have another baby, we will be fine. We had decided not to have any more, but I know we'd manage...

And having reassured myself, I've now got to the stage where if I get my period or a BFN, I will be devastated.

Fuck. I have to POAS don't I :( wanted to buy a test the other day but I know all the people in the pharmacy and just couldn't face it

Don't mind me, no need to reply, just ranting :(

You could maybe order some tests from ebay or somewhere. Then while they come you could start your period and then always sell them again.

Have you spoke to your DH/DP about it?

I can get a test in town (it was the local pharmacy I went to before) or maybe at the supermarket tomorrow. My parents will be up all day though!

DH was equally worried about another baby. We always wanted lots of children but agreed to stop at two once we realised the reality of it!

But I mentioned my feelings to him, and he admitted feeling exactly the same! :)

And yet I know we won't TTC - our sensible sides are definitely set on just having two. But we would both be so happy if it happened accidentally.

I have a really bad feeling I'll get AF tomorrow though. :(

Still nothing... Am going to sneak off in tesco (dad is taking me later) and buy a test.

Been up since 4.30 thinking about it

Well I hope that you get the result you want. It's strange isn't it how we decide that we don't want anymore babies and then something like this happens and you change your mind.

Good luck :)

If you hardly had sex and used a condom when you did I think you probably will find you are not, seriously.

If that is the case and you are dissapointed, then I guess you have some thinking to do as it sounds like in your heart of hearts your family is not complete.

Have you got "time" on your side? Any chance you can finish your course and move to a bigger house in 5 years or so (get your first 2 off to school or whatever) then have an "afterthought"? A proper planned one?

Well, time isn't ticking for me. I'm only just 24. DH just turned 43, though most people don't believe that - he is normally really fit and youthful, though he's injured ATM.

I don't know... If we hadn't had this 'scare' a baby would still be the last thing on my/our mind - DS (16m) is a terrible sleeper/boob monster

Oh well only a few hours until I can POAS. Am fervently trying not to read into every little 'symptom' until then!

I know it's for the best if I'm not, though. At least in terms of finance, stress etc.

God the suspense!!

I hope you are :)

Argh - must be a conspiracy - mum (librarian) has brought a load of withdrawn books for us to look through, and one of them is a Children's book about how babies are made. FFS.

Whatever the result- I hope you are ok with it

BFN. AF still not arrived though

Was very sad, as was DH. But this evening we've had a really good talk. We are of exactly the same mind - if it happened accidentally we'd cope, but we have agreed to put this on hold until summer. DH needs to recover from his back injury and return to work, we need to carry on sorting the house out (have been doing really well) and save some money, and I need to lose some weight and get a bit of work (voluntary or paid) under my belt.

Basically we aren't totally sure, but we've agreed that if we do want another it needs to be in the next couple of years, due to DH's age and my future career - rather than suddenly wanting to TTC several years down the line.

Wow. Sorry for waffling!

At least this has given you both the opportunity to talk honestly to one another and make some plans for the future. All the best.

Thanks :) I'm so glad we are on the same page, so to speak. I've read a few threads lately where the DP is 'not allowing' them to have another :(

We aren't even sure we definitely will TTC, it's just that we want to get more sorted first so we can make an informed choice.

This of course is assuming I'm definitely not pregnant - AF still not arrived, definitely late (which never happens) - got a couple more tests just in case. Though I think I'm now hoping I'm not pregnant, because I'd rather wait a few months!

That was weird... I jus got back from the GP, as I was getting really worried where AF was - apparently I have a UTI, which had got quite severe and apparently that can delay periods, WTF?!? He said AF may not return until next cycle, but to test again if I'm worried.

So it's all a relief really - we have already made a start with planning our savings etc so maybe we will have DC3 next year! :)