DH and met 3-4years ago, everything was fab, got pregnant[planned] 2years in, up until that point and all the way through pregnancy, we couldnt even walk passed each other in the house without hands touching, cwtching, every morning before he left for work, he would kiss me goodbye, even while I was still sleeping
Maybe a month after baby was born this carried on, but then it stopped
Put it down to tiredness etc from night feeds etc,
Beginning of this year we decided to get married[well put wheels in motion, had decided to wed long time before]
Knowing how strained things were with us, I repeatedly ask/try to discuss the lack of affection ect, and was looking for some assurance, that it would be fine.Instead, he didnt ignore me, but listened and that was about it
I considered cancelling the wedding on numerous occasion [which I told him], but felt I could not, as many of our family members gave financially towards the wedding.
Married 27th August, this year, was the first time in months we had kissed [and it has been the last time], we were intimate 3 days after wedding [last time we have been]
We get on so well, in all, maybe like best friends etc.
Having made my issues clear before the wedding, I chose to keep quiet for a time after wedding, and see what happened, well we are coming into 2011, and nothing has happened, Ive given him a reasonably amount of time
Mentioned to him on friday, I have a solicitors appt on 11th of Jan, regarding divorce, broke down and explained I can not cope with things the way they are, he suggested because I was so upset, to have a relaxing bath,and that was it, carried on as fooking normal.
I feel so stupid marrying him, Im so upset, welling up here, feel almost ashamed even, that I do not think my husband loves me anymore
He is perfect dad, perfect husband, pulls his weight around house, everything else is perfect except this, I wish I could ignore it, but its beating me up inside