It's been a tough week. DH has been away overnight with work on Monday night - also a jolly as he stays with an old friend and they went out together. He had a loooong day at work on Wednesday and wasn't back til gone 9.30. On top of this my 4 and 6 year olds have colds and have been up a lot in the night every single night this week - as has their 6 month old sister who is breastfed so I do all of the night wakings with her. In fact the elder 2 have stayed off school sick today which has been hard work. Especially as their baby sister has refused a nap all day.
DH was meant to be going out with some friends straight from work tonight - not a Xmas do though (that's tomorrow) - and he was umming and ahhing about cancelling as he's understandably knackered. He asked me if I wanted him to cancel. I said I'd prefer it if he didnt go as i'm knackered and the kids have barely seen him but that it was his decision. I never usually say this, never veto a night out as he's a considerate man usually and doesn't go out that much. And obviously he's a grown man so it's not up to me!
He's just phoned to say he's decided he will go out. I'm gutted at the thought of ANOTHER night of wrestling all the kids to bed by myself and dealing with all the evenings inevitable disruptions. I can't help but feel he's being selfish here. If I'd have told him not to go he wouldn't have in fairness but I wanted him to see the right thing to do and make the decision himself. Does this make sense? Or am I going mad with sleep deprivation?