Hello!
I come to the end of a four month job tommorrow and to be honest, I have hated every single second of being their I have gained weight, been bullied by someone senior and according to some developed some form of depression.
While at my parent's the other night I made some comment about how everyday since I started there that on the drive in I secretly hope that someone will crash into me or force me off the road so my legs break and I am unable to go back to the fucking place!
They laugh, evening carries on as normal have my wine and drive myself home. I wake up this morning with FOURTY NINE missed calls on my phone and the same amount of messages, tis my mother checking up on me too make sure I don't do anything "Selfish and Stupid" they have also booked me into see a therapist...
Don't get me wrong, I utterly LOATHE this job and every single person in it and around me every single day. However, I quite enjoy being alive so wouldn't actually do something like killing myself I don't think!!
Not entirely sure if this is an AIBU...Just needed to talk about it really..