OK this is the best thing that has happened all week being allowed back on MN as I was banned for a long time, I used to be a prolific poster and I have not been able to post for yonks. But now that I am back I need your help to get rid of this horrid sense of foreboding I have had this week. First the riots just made me feel sad and uneasy and I have a horrid feeling we are seeing just the beginning as the "bloodlust" starts. Our house is trying to wind me up we have rising damp, are spending a fortune on our heating as our pipes freeze really easily the electrics played up on friday and DH trying to fix the next thing that goes wrong tonight it was the dishwasher it has packed up totally. I feel we need to call in the Most Haunted team to exorcise some malevolent force in our house we had 2 plumbers last week and a "sparks" on Friday, I have just left a message for a washing machine engineer on his answerphone. Also my bf's marriage is breaking down and she is leaning on me for the first time ever (she is very stoical) and is always there for others. My mum had another fall this morning and my dad is struggling to cope he thinks she may need to be in a home soon. And I am scared shitless about the weather as they say the freeze is returning and will be worse than before I have to do a lot of driving for my work and I get over worried. Lastly I have started bleeding a little everyday in between the curse and I am beating myself up about it the GP has done an exam an says if it continues I can have a scan. (My aunt died of ovarian cancer so I keep dwelling....) the GP thought that when my period arrived it might sort itself out. It did arrive on time and I swear without being too graphic it was like someone had turned the tap on, Icould not go out the house all day it was that bad. I could be pre-menopausal I suppose. Look, I' m sorry to go on like this and it seems very self-indulgent but I just cannot shake off this awful feeling, I tried watching Elf earlier and it didn't work also DH has just shown me an email from his boss and he is 25k off his office target if he doesn't make it by end of March they will have to let him go. He has shown me this as he wants me to help do sme "cold calling" for him next week. I swear this is not a wind-up and I am not a troll I just need some funny distraction from you guys out there.Oh by the way I know the gynae stuff should be on the health forums but it is all related to my state of mind.