to wish dperession would not rear it's ugly head

[AuntiePickleBottom]

i am not sure if it is my fault, as everytime i feel good i come off the tablets, then after a few days i go back to feeling so low.

it takes weeks then to go back to feeling happy again.

will i just spend the rest of my life on anti-d's

I feel for you APB. I suffered for years before I had my beautiful children, but luckily since having my first DS things changed and I've never had the lows since. I lost my father years ago to depression so can really sympathise with you. I hope things get better for you so you can enjoy your life and your children

Auntie you are not a failure! Some people with type II diabetes can manage it through diet and lifestyle changes, some people need to take medication to reduce their blood sugar levels. Does that make them failures? All people with type I diabetes need insulin - are they failures for lacking an essential hormone? Of course not - and neither are you!

Use the pills to give you a leg up to normality, and then you can do all the things that you know help you feel better - exercise, playing with your kids, seeing friends, whatever.

Best of luck.

You aren't a failure, and you aren't alone. Your kids will get the normal you back, give yourself time to recover.
Try to remember that taking the pills isn't a bad thing, and that you deserve the help they give.

You are definitely not a failure - I struggled for over 20yrs telling myself that I did not need the help of my GP or medication. The result was a total mental breakdown - I was unable to leave my house, answer the phone,talk to anyone except my long suffering husband and spent the majority of my time in tears or staring at the wall wishing it would all just end. I lost my job of 27yrs and this caused financial pressures also. Medication saved my life and 6 yrs on I am working again full time doing a job I love - working with children :). I have been on a variety of meds now on reboxetine twice a day and have had lots of talking help - cbt etc. I have tried 3 times to come off meds and every time have sunk to a low within 3 - 4 mths, I now understand that I NEED them just like a diabetic needs insulin. Even on them I still have tough times especially if under any extra pressure but have learned to recognise the signs and try to look after myself.

DON'T BEAT YOURSELF UP - LOOK AFTER YOURSELF!
TAKE CARE

APB you're not a failure at all. The tablets will help you get back on an even keel and let you start enjoying life again. Good luck and [hug].

Peering thanks so much for all the info, really interesting! I might look into finding a herbalist in the new year. The liver ones sound good for me too, I'm fond of a glass or 3 of wine .

No problem Phish - glad to help.

Have a look here for more info about herbalism and how to find a herbalist near to you.

If you like your wine then Carduus marianus - Milk Thistle is the way to go. You can get the tincture in health shops but it's expensive like that. You can get tablets too. Try looking online at reputable herbal suppliers.

Please dont take St Johns Wort alongside anti-depressants. You asking for trouble, don't self medicate either.

Sorry Phish forgot the link;
www.nimh.org.uk/

Thanks again Peering will have a look.