Lying in bed wide awake waiting for dh to return from a work night out. He first said he'd be gone for "a couple of drinks" and may miss the dcs bedtime. I was fine about this. When he wasn't home by half seven I called to see if he wanted any supper or I should just make it myself. He seemed to have had no intention of letting me know what he was doing, but had had chips and wad not coming back for dinner. Still I was fine about it, said have a nice time, asked when he might return (having listened to his friends from work saying "ooh (insert dh's name) you've been naughty you're in trouble...") He said that he would prob get last train home at ten to eleven. He clearly didn't as he isn't home. This would all be annoying but sort of ok if it weren't for the fact that I am taking the dcs (2.2 and 5 months) up to Scotland for a week tomorow to stay with my parents. So he will have a whole week "off", already has a big night out in London planned tomorrow night with friends and hasn't bloody bothered coming home.
Meanwhile I (who have not had a full nights sleep in FIVE MONTHS) am sat at home waiting for him to come home worrying about him.
If he us fine, which I sincerely hope he is, l will be SO pissed of with him. I have phoned him, but no reply. Naively I thought he might wish to see me before I went away, but clearly a week without us is not long enough. I feel so hurt and I just know I won't be able to express it without sounding like miser.