DD1 is 2.2yo and DD2 is 7mo. I return to work tomorrow one day a week till after new year and tbh I'm really excited about it. But I feel quite guilty at feeling excited!
I'm just really struggling with my DD's at times and today was horrendous. I usually try to get out and break up the day but the weather was horrendous so couldn't even take kids out so all day was spent saying
Eat you breakfast/lunch/dinner, leave her alone, don't put that cardigan over your head, don't bring that toy out till you others are away, don't touch the fireplace, STOP HITTING YOUR SISTER!!! I'm actually sick of the sound of my own voice!
DD2 is particularly hard work as she is going through what I hope is seperation anxiety and will get better but I can't even put her down!
DP works 6 days a week, long shifts, so I think if he was here more I'd feel less suffocated and lonely so I am desperate to get to work tomorrow!!
I thought I'd return to work for the mandatory 3 months and then take a break for a while but i honestly don't think I'd cope! Tell me it gets easier? I just seem to be getting by and no more and I don't spend any quality time with the DD's. I don't want to wish DD2's life away but I keep thinking, wait tioll she's sitting up/walking/able to play with her sister!
Sorry, just having a bad day! I know I'll probably sneak to the toilets in work tomorrow for a wee cry wishing I was at home with the kids! :)