Not putting it well but sometimes if I talk to someone I have a social connection with at a party or somewhere I start to feel very self critical in my head. Is it possible it might be my gut telling me this person isn't someone I should bother with/is a toxic? Does anyone else feel like this?
Previously I've beaten myself up about it and assumed that I must have a problem as others don't feel that way.
To give an example there is a Mum at the school who appears to be broadly liked and respected, a high status individual if you like. I've noticed that a few fawn around her for some reason, e.g 'you always look so beautiful, I always feel like a total wreck next to you' etc. We met at a party recently and she made a few comments that seemed fine on the surface but left me feeling slightly disturbed and uncomfortable afterwards.
She asked why I always looked so well put together and groomed but I got the feeling it was a criticism rather than a compliment. I am not overly sensitive but it made me seriously doubt myself and lead me to question myself, it seemed she was saying I was trying to show off in some way and others, more confident, wouldn't bother?
There were a few other remarks like this and I felt quite uncomfortable.