To wonder where the f**k I went wrong and why I cannot seem to sort myself out ?

[TheOriginalNutcracker]

Just that really.

I split with xp in 2006 and things never seem to get any better.

Actually that might not be true, I think I might hate my life whatever happened.

forgot to say, always tell youself

YOU ARE WORTH THE BEST

and be proud of yourself, you are bringing up your children single handed whilst doing a job you dont want to do, that deserves lots of credit

Sorry to have not posted lately.

Just to update, I rang in sick at work today and went to my gp. She has diagnosed me as moderatly depressed and started me on anti d's.

Feeling a bit like a failure now and not sure what I do next really.

Why do you feel a failure now ? Going to your GP sounds like the first step to sorting yourself out. Well done for that. The anti d's will start working soon, then you can start thinking more clearly about what to do next.

Well done for going to see the doc-I know it sounds cliched but sometimes that is the hardest step. You're not a failure for needing a bit of help.

In a few weeks the anti-d's will kick in and lift your mood, and then you can start making changes to your life if you still want to.

I'm often crippled by my lack of self-esteem, and I'll have ideas about changing and not the confidence to follow them through- but when I was taking the anti-d's and having counselling I felt anything was possible- I even finally managed to get some voluntary work in the local school that I'd been putting off sorting out for about 5 years!

Good luck.