My teitze's has been horrendous for the past two weeks. my ribs are swollen and bruised, another rib popped out this morning which made me sick. I am practially inhaling my painkillers and they are barely touching the pain.
I am not going to get better. only worse. eventually my spine will become deformed and I will be unable to walk at all. I have lost the use of my left hand and my right shoulder is stiff. dh had to dress me today.
my mum and stepdad came over to see ds while dh was at football. my stepdad has never worked because he has a bad back. my mum has fybromyaligia and is hugely, hugely overweight. as a result my stepdad pushes her round in a wheelchair (so his back is well enough to do that) and is unable to work as her carer.
they came in, mum asked how i am. my usual response is "im ok thanks, you?" then i get an hour long monologue about how ill she is. today i said "shit tbh, im in so much pain i can barely breathe and im scred about getting the injection" (which will be into cartilige to reduce swelling, its the next step in pain relief) and burst into tears she said "oh... yes, Ive got a trapped nerve and cant move my neck" I smiled then went to make us a drink. i had to call my sd to fill the kettle for me because it was too heavy. i made drinks and talked to them for a bit. im not much company, pills make me stupid, i feel sick and im in a lot of pain.
when they went I said "thank you for coming, sorry I wasnt much company" to which sd replied "if i moaned as much as you i'd never shut up"
fucking fucker. my whole life he has moaned about how ill he is. refused to work and blamed everyone he can for everything. he abused me for as long as i can remember, and blamse his short temper on being ill/not working/me being a vile brat everything. i try not to moan (admittedly, i have a lot this past 2w, but this is a particularly bad flare up) and the first time im honest about how bad i am, im rebuked for moaning.
twat.