i neeed to give some background ,
i had quite a hard chilhood ,my mum left my dad when i was seven and my brother was four , this completely broke my heart and still does whenever i hear someone say they would never leave their kids no matter what i have a great relationship with her now but the hurt is sometimes still their , i have always been very close with my dad and my bro was closer to my mum , my dad remarried and had another baby when i was twelve , i was delighted to have a new sister but quickly felt pushed out as she quickly becvame favourite , my brother and i are often told she will do better than us is cleverer better looking etc and she also gets taken abroad multiple times a year has lots of new clothes a dog basically all the things we couldnt have she is twelve years younger but my parents are not better off they just obviously think she is worth it more than we were
i met my dh five years ago and felll head over heels and it was mutual we moved in almost staightaway and have an amazing relationship , my ds came along three months ago and unfortunately i did not bond with him straightaway which devastated me ,my dh however is completely smitten cant stop talking about him which is how it should be,
the problem is when he goes on and on i cant help but feel a tiny bit jealous like a little kid inside me is saying what about me? it doesnt help that a lot of the when im talking to dh he is not listening and gazing ot our ds, i know i shouldnt feel like this and ned some advice on getting over it , has anyone ever felt the same? its making me feel awful