to want to go back to sleep.

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i have been on steroids for asthma it screws up my sleep pattern. last night i suffered from insomina and could go to sleep until about 4am. just as i was dosing off ds got up. he has a sleep disorder so not his fault. managed to convince him go back to sleep around 6am. he didnt settle down until 6:45am. the alarm went off at 7:30, which i rolled over and changed to 8am. surprisingly we werent late to school.

Not surprisingly i am shattered and want to go back to sleep.
Some lovely person is doing some serious gardening with a strimmer, someone else is doing building work (i think the council). I know it is not their fault that i cant sleep and wouldnt dream of complaining. but still.

I want to fucking sleep. i need some serious sleep. :(

Am i being unreasonable to sulk and hide under the duvet anyway and ignore the huge to do list, even though there is no chance of sleep atm?

YANBU

Sleep when you can, rest if you can't sleep.

All the stuff on the to do list will still be there later! (unfortunately)

now that i could fall alseep i have to get up to collect ds.
its a sodding conspiracy. have rested body but the mind is busy and driving me crazy. writing it down is unlikely to help.
Must sleep though. completely exhaust. me thinks its time for the strong prescription chemical solution. and an early night.

I don't suppose you have any friends, family dogs home that could take -- DS for a couple of nights do you? Do you have a DH/DP that you could leave at home with DS and book yourself into a hotel for a couple of nights? Failing either of those being options, I guess it's drugs! Have you tried Nytol (the full strength (not half), not herbal)?? They're pretty good for a couple of nights.

As DS is school age - can you not have a snack/drink he can reach, things he's allowed to do etc without you having to get up to him? Is there anything else you can do to help his disorder?

he is medicated re his sleep disorder but has been a bit unsettle on return to school. new building, new class etc. Ds is supposed to have twice monthly contact visits with his dad, but last one got canceled due to his dad having made a stupid joke the time before that really unsettled him. he is due down there this weekend but it has been arranged for me to supervise the visit :( i need him to go on his own for both our sakes but know that it is for the best that i go. plus ex has a very special treat planned for him and is trying to involve me in ds' special experiences too. which is nice and appreciated. I am just tired. thankfully ds is too and when he goes to bed i will.

I have strong meds for migraines which i am supposed to take everynight that make me crash, which is why i dont take them unless i have to. i will take them tonight and hopefully sleep.

There is a bit of healthy neglect going on atm and tea is leftovers. so an easy night is planned.

OPV, i hope you can get your night sorted. leftovers, no worries, eat then sleep. x

no worries < hollow laugh> doom and failure there.

Ouch that all sounds like hard work :(

It's nice of his Dad to include you in the suprise - bit of a shame it means you missing out on time to sleep!

Nothing wrong with leftovers and going to bed when DS does.... I hope he sleeps through and you do too x

Poor you.

I was an insomniac for ages and it's vile.

The one thing that really helped me was learning a relaxation technique, took a few goes to get it but it really worked (basically tensing each body part then relaxing it).

Also getting up a the same time no matter how rubbish I slept.

hope it gets better soon

well ds is asleep but i am still not sleepy/ tired. :( am going to move hiim to his own room and try anyway. this sucks.