To Feel Like This About My Weight?

[charley24]

Ok, Long story so bear with me, I suppose I am looking for some kind of self help or understanding and perhaps I am being a bit unreasonable too, on myself !

I have always had weight issues from being around 20 years old. (Now 35).

When I had my 2nd DD 6 years ago I weighed 17 stone, large I know and I wore a size 20 clothing. I don't eat for confort, I simply eat because I love eating...I could blame all sorts of things but the fact is I am quite lazy and I eat the wrong foods.

Anyways I digress......So after DD2 was born I joined Weight Watchers and 1 year later I got married and weighed 12 stone 10lbs. Not light as a feather but for my 5'6 I wa still classed as overweight but I felt nice and looked ok, wore a size 14 wedding dress.

Anyways weight up and down - between 12.8 and 14.12 for a few years.

Last summer 14.12.....so I did the cambridge diet, which as you may know means no food for weeks, and I managed 13 weeks and ended up 11 stone and although still a size 14 trousers, I was a size 12 top.

It was very very hard but the rewards were good, shopping ! Loving photographs of myself.

I tried to keep the weight off, but you may know after these kind of diets it isn't easy and of course I slipped back into my old ways.

I am now 14.3 and miserable, however because I 'got to' 11 stone - healthy BMI it is like I am HUGE and I am actually so embarrased as feel like the girl who lost weight and put it all back on.

I am joining a new slimming class Monday and have signed up for a bootcamp so hopefully I can actually learn that to be able to maintain a healthy figure I do need to watch what I eat and also exersize.

I suppose my AIBU is that I feel like I got to an unrealistic weight of 11 stone (incidentally people said I looked ill, but that I probably because they had seen my moon face for years).

I just want to try and get my mind in a good place because it won't be easy not losing 10lbs a week, then 4 pounds every week after that which is what happened on the cambridge.

Can anyone give me any support or anyone been on a VLCD and survived afterwards.

I just feel so depressed about it, 2 other girls did the diet when I did and are still maintaining these tiny figures, whilst I have put 3 stone back on !!!!!!!!!

Another issue-free chomper like SingingBear and binjibaghi - My family and I are all food/cooking-obsessed and like SingingBear, it has to be 'good' food. I'd always fancy a healthy option over an unhealthy option - except cake which I'd choose over anything (love, money, DC etc )

OP - Have you tried hypnotherapy? I'm wondering if you could address your Haribo addiction that way? Sorry if that sounds a bit simplistic/flippant, it's just I've known several friends have success with hypnotherapy recently.

I too am like roses, binj, bear, and disagree with cyb. I think I am an "issue-free chomper".

Don't do silly diets OP. do sensible eating and some form of exercise.

Wow, lots of posts ! And thank you each and every one, I will do a long post of individual posts !

Smell - It is a daily bootcamp, so it's on 4 times per week, it's not an actual 'Kerry Katona type place' !!!!!!!

Hello :) and thank for all your posts, lots of food (oops) for thought there.

I know faddy diets may work initially and it was wonderful to be thinner BUT my head never really learnt anything, which is all my fault !

I think I just want to be thin and eat whatever !

I have thought about hypnotherapy and I have been looking for someone local, you never know!

And I think weight watchers or slimming world are the way to go....just got to get my ass down to a class !

xxx

ah thanks singing.....I can see that there are quite a few of us who just LOVE our food...and keep going and going....

I'm with all the people who love eating!

It's not comfort, it's not stress. I just like sour cream, butter, mayonnaise, cheese, chips and chocolate and will use them to accompany other things that I eat! And sadly, I don't find that any of the "replacement" foods for these are anything like as nice as the real thing.

I don't go "Oh yum!" at the sight of a basket of fruit, although if I eat fruit, I do enjoy it. I suppose the trick would be to teach myself to love healthy food a bit more and unhealthy food a bit less but it is difficult!