I met my best friend at the beginning of secondary school and we were the absolute best of friends. We spent almost every waking moment together that we could and I really enjoyed her company back then. It was so much fun.
I then moved away after school and I haven't seen this girl for almost 10 years. About 2 or 3 years ago we got back in contact via Facebook and send messages to and fro, but have never met up.
I have changed a lot in these 10 years. I have put on loads of weight, dress quite frumpily, but I do have a good job to show for myself, a lovely home, although small and in a not-so-nice area, but it's still my lovely home, and I feel i've achieved an excellent education post-school.
For the past year or so, this girl has been mithering and mithering me to meet up with her and get back to where we were 10 years ago. For many reasons, I have put this off. On facebook, she is constantly bragging about herself, she has made herself clear to be a racist, she posts pictures of her in revealing outfits and her bikini, with comments from herself saying things like "wow, I look amazing here" and is always fishing for compliments. Also, she is one of these people who are always writing things like "Ohhh, I just hate it when this happens", making people think 'what has happened' and she is basically just an attention seeker.
She was a bit like this when we were teenagers, but I could put up with it then. I'm not sure I want to be friends with someone like that now. Far too high maintenance! Plus, I am also insecure about myself. I used to be quite pretty and outgoing, always the joker and always a chatterbox, and I had an amazing figure at school, thought through teenage insecurities, thought I was hideous back then! Now i'm fat, frumpy and never have anything interesting to say. I really have no friends at all, and because of everything that is wrong with me, i'm happy not to have them, and happy not to meet up with thos girl again.
What do you all think I should do?
Thanks