Years of hiding my problem but found out

[limeebergomotti]

Don’t know where to start…

I think I’ve always known I had a problem with alcohol but I kept it so well hidden…
until people started to realise ..
The shame now that everyone actually knows .. and they have done whilst I thought they didn’t..
the embarrassment for my children…

I feel so so bad…

Are you going to try and stop?

Time to stop feeling bad and to deal with the problem. Are you physically addicted?

You have admitted you have a problem so Now is the time to take action. This was me a few years back. Go speak to your GP and be honest. Alcohol for me wasn’t always an issue, but by the time i realised it was it had caused me so much trouble and by then i was physically addicted.

I too thought i kept it so well hidden, The secrecy, lies & manipulation takes over your whole life.

I thought my life would be over if i couldn’t drink, How could i go on holidays, weddings, funerals? etc.
Today I am able to do all these things and alcohol isn’t an issue.

Please don’t carry that shame around as it was the one thing that kept me drinking.
I couldn’t face the consequences of my actions until i accepted I had a problem.
Life can be good again but in my experience you have to want to quit and accept that decision in order to succeed.

I wish you well, See your GP and keep an open mind about recovery x

Start by stopping feeling sorry for yourself.
Feel sorry for your children, family and friends.

Join AA or SMART and put all your focus on NOT DRINKING

If you surrender to your addiction and drink start again the next morning. Use every available means to help stay sober - but never drink because you feel guilt and shame because you fell off the wagon.

You'll make excuses to have a drink. Be aware of that, your addiction wants to be in control and has a big bag of tricks to play.

You should join the naltrexone support thread on here op. It’s working great for lots of us. Is hard accepting you have a problem but it really is the first step.