Hungover again

[alcoholshame]

NC for obvious reasons

I'm so fed up of myself, I drink far too much, almost every night at the moment, usually spirits but sometimes red wine. I will drink until I'm drunk. Not out of control drunk, but usually my memory of the end of the evening is fuzzy at best.

I'm going through a lot right now which I can't get into because... Well, I'm ashamed that this is how I'm coping with it. But in reality I've always been a binge drinker, it's just now it's not once a week, it's pretty much daily.

I'm going to book in to see the doctor. Has anyone been prescribed any medication to supresss alcohol urges? I'm not sure I can do this alone and it's pretty necessary to sort this out. Because of my circumstances, I don't have the ability to attend groups.

I'm so fed up with being me right now, sometimes I honestly wish I'd just not wake up.

Anyone?

I'm so sorry to hear this OP. Have you had a drink yet today? Any day you don't is the start of not feeling this way.

No havent been prescribed anything but I did throw all the acohol down the sink and take myself to bed early so I no longer get tempted.
Been nearly 4 weeks now and feel loads better for it. You can do it op.

No I don't tend to drink if Im hungover, these are always my days of self loathing and determination to change. Usually lasts until tomorrow afternoon when I open up the wine pre Sunday dinner and then delay dinner as long as I can to get another glass in. I'm sick of my routine. I desperately need change, but I let the slightest bad day send me off track and that's it, the vodka is cracked open and there goes another evening.

My cousin is on the injectable weight loss drugs for other issues but it has stopped her alcohol cravings @alcoholshame It may not be suitable for you. This is such a common problem, you're not at all alone.

Thank you. The problem is the time im wasting and the time spent not being present in the moment which i will regret for the rest of my life if I don't sort. I will never get this time back and I already hate that I've spent the last year like this

OP your GP probably isn’t best placed to support you with this, they will likely just signpost you to local alcohol services.
That service might offer you medication but they will want you to engage in some form of therapy/ monitoring alongside, it often is groups to start with.
AA do have online groups too which might be accessible if getting to an in person group isn’t.

You have a good understanding of why you want to stop and your understanding is logical and rational. You deserve to be present and you don’t deserve to feel ashamed over the time wasted. You can do this. What you’ll lose is those awful comedowns, which will always happen as long as you continue. Ask your self if it’s worth it, drinking the toxin that causes you so much unhappiness.

That’s what I did. It took a while of stopping a few weeks, feeling great, then falling back. It’s like any addiction/problem, you have to take control of that devil on your shoulder encouraging you to harm yourself.

Get yourself some quit lit - ‘This Naked Mind’, ‘The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober’ and ‘The Sober Diaries’ are 3 great ones off the top of my head. There are loads of great podcasts for the sober curious as well if that’s more your thing - e.g. Sober Dave, The Big Drink Rethink and Sober Stories from Everyday People. Sassysobermum on instagram, who does that 3rd podcast, also runs an online support community called Thrive which is great and includes online meetings (not compulsory).

Just immerse yourself in information and support from the sober/sober curious online community - you can start this before stopping drinking if you like. Information is power, and it makes it so much easier to stop when you understand more about alcohol and what you’re dealing with.

I’m 5 months sober and honestly, it’s amazing. Best decision I ever made. Imagine never being hungover again! Never waking up at 3am full of self-loathing with a pounding heart and banging head!

You CAN do it xxx

Just take one day at a time. Plan how you’re going the deal with the trigger. Change up your routine. I gave up when I came back from a boozy holiday. So iI’d already broken the routine of the night time wine at home by being away. I agree with all the books/podcasts. This is a gift to yourself.

I'm exactly the same as you. It's awful.