I promised myself this year I wouldn't get so drunk at our annual work event out of three nights, I ended up pretty pissed on one of them.
The work event was three days long, and by day two, I was exhausted and had eaten very little. We had a lot of wine and by 2am, I was very drunk. I was with colleagues and asked them the next morning if I was inappropriate at all and they said I was fine, just not making much sense and forgot which hotel I was staying at. Apparently then I remembered and took myself to bed.
I can't remember much of this but Im sure I looked a mess. I'm worried I'm not being told that I was an asshole. My partner is insecure and now I'm afraid that I did something blackout drunk to hurt our relationship like flirting or trying to make a pass at someone. I know this is very unlikely as i was apparently trying to call my partner from 1am to 3am and when he did answer, I gave the phone to one of my male colleagues to tell him where I was. He told my boyfriend he would make sure I got back to my room and I have a message from this colleague saying he hopes I'm back OK..
I feel incredibly embarrassed and paranoid and just want to die. Noone seems too upset with me but not being able to remember is hard. Drinking at these things is just not worth it.
Please offer some support if you can. Does it sound that bad?