Just listening to a Richard Vobes podcast and his guest said that. It wasn’t related to substance abuse but it struck a chord with me. I am an alcoholic. A series of events, beyond my control, has raised my awareness of why I drink.
I have suffered an eating disorder, in that I don’t feel a need to eat, I can ignore hunger pains, however, it’s a problem I am urgently addressing. Alcohol though is the pain killer. I am afraid of the can of worms that giving up alcohol might open.
Recent counselling has made me aware that my childhood was abusive, my relationship with my ex was abusive, well that I knew. But like all women, we mostly put and shut up. I suppose I’m not alone. It’s addressing the problem, here at 4 am or whenever. When you don’t want to drink but you can’t sleep and have no one to talk to. I recognise my emotional pain. It’s taken many years to see it. If you are abusing substances try to see why. It’s difficult. The best project you can work on is YOU.