Relapsed in a crazy bender because of Burt

[GravyDenier]

I was at my longest clean streak when I stumbled upon a reel by Burt Kreischer, praising being an alcoholic and how he's staying healthy enough to keep drinking.

It triggered something inside me and I went for a cocktail at a bar. It was like sipping nectar. It was like a chain reaction, leading to me waking up at a uni student's flat, with missed calls from my family.

I feel ashamed but also that was the greatest night of my life in years. I feel like I just can't keep it together anymore

Hello, I didn't want to read and not write anything.

You relapsed because you're an alcoholic, and that just gave you an excuse to try it. It might have felt like a good night, but you know what it will lead to.

Today is a new day, keep the strength and keep off the alcohol. I'm sure your family want the real you, not the drunken mess x

@GravyDenier at least you’re owning it.

Your brain loves alcohol - alcohol is designed that way, just like all mood enhancing drugs. Alcohol gives the brain an easy high - much much more than walking in nature/a soak in the bath/exercise and all the other things that are supposed to make us feel good.

Us problem drinkers probably have innate biological differences/genetic differences which make the boost in the brain from alcohol so much greater than for other people.

But you know you have a problem so it’s up to you to not take that first drink. It’s so hard to ride out the craving - but we know we must. My cravings build up over days and become all consuming -at times I can think of nothing else but drinking - no “cravings last 20 minutes” for me!

But you’ve done a long streak that unfortunately you’ve broke - but you know you can do it. Time to get back on the horse and stay away from sources of information that will tell you that you can manage alcohol - you can’t. Good luck 💐

You’ve done it before, you can do it again.
dust yourself off and get back on the sobriety wagon, and stay off social media if it encourages you to drink.
there is no such thing as a healthy acoholic.

This is a joke right?

If you are an alcoholic you can’t moderate. People who aren’t alcoholics may be able to have a wild night out like the one you just had every once in a blue moon and then carry on living their life and not drinking to that point again for months etc.

With an alcoholic you know it’s likely that you will want to have more of these binge drinking sessions very often and very soon the wheels will come off your life as a result. They won’t be fun when they are destroying the life you have worked hard for

How can it have been that great? You can’t remember it, or at least that’s how it seems

You can hold it together. 💖 You just need help.

Go to your nearest AA meeting? You’ll be supported. You’re not alone.

Going AF is an exciting journey that will give you a much better life than drinking ever will.

Give yourself a chance ❤️‍🩹❤️