I have been with my partner now for nearly 3 years. We used to have a great relationship. He's always had problems deep down with alcohol. When he met me his family said he'd really turned a corner and was so happy but lately his drinking is worse than its ever been. We bought a house together and he told me it would be a fresh start but the stress of renovating the house has triggered the drinking again. He has always suffered with his mental health (depression) and was signed off work 4 months ago as he said work was a major trigger for him but now he's not working he just drinks daily. He either becomes emotionally abusive towards me, sometimes unintentionally hurting me through drunken rages or passes out drunk on the sofa and I have to spend most evenings alone. He's also messaged a lot of women when drunk sexual messages, and says he doesn't remember doing it. He says the most vile things about me and my family. When he's sober he's so lovely but that's a rarity nowadays. I've tried all I can to get him some professional support. NHS waiting lists are so long and the doctor has said he needs private counselling as the NHS sessions wouldn't be enough for him, but we don't have the money as he's not working currently. My family hate him as I've stayed with them before when he's been vile towards me but don't realise how bad his mental health is. I don't know what to do? We go round in circles and when he's sober he listens and understands but I find myself going round in circles. He's told me so many times when he's depressed and/or drinking he wants to kill himself and I'm terrified if I leave he'll go through with it but the relationship is draining me physically and emotionally- what should I do?