I self referred a few days ago. I'm not coping at all, and cannot stop drinking every day mostly. Too much anxiety and ptsd and worry and fear. Life is too much. I've stopped before but it's way worse now. One or two bottles of wine a day. I'm too traumatised for groups and trying to start DBT this week. No money for rehab or anything intensive. I feel absolutely ashamed and guilty and I desperately need help.