I don't even know why I am writing here. I have no real friends and don't want to talk to my family about how I am feeling, but I am so depressed, lonely and feeling totally worthless in life. I have no right to feel this way. I have a husband and 2 healthy children, a lovely home, a great job. But I feel like everyday is just another day of existence. My husband has gone on a health kick recently and become judgemental in a passive aggressive type of manner. I have let myself go so much but have lost all sense of purpose in even trying to make an effort. My children are typical teens and switch between kind and funny to moody and disrespectful. I have started to drink most nights as a way to numb this overwhelming sense of worthlessness. It numbs the awful thoughts and makes me feel.confident, until the next day... Nobody would ever know how I feel as I have put on a mask for so many years and now I just feel so alone. I cry most days when I'm alone and HATE myself for not being the positive, healthy, pretty wife I was 15 years ago. I have just snapped at my Husband for rolling his eyes at me and have had to drive to a nearby park to sit alone and have a good cry. I can't carry on like this anymore. I don't see the point in feeling miserable and making everyone around me tread on eggshells. So sorry for the long post. I just needed an outlet from anyone who may be here