After months of sobriety-feeling amazing with great sleep, weight loss and improved relationships I decided I would have an evening of moderate drinking as I’m now cured of my previous alcohol issues 🙄
Needless to say it ended terribly. I actually got blackout drunk (a friend filled in all the gaps which was horrifying) and also hurt myself quite badly (there was blood) by falling over which I have zero recollection of.
Thankfully the most damaged thing is my self esteem and it was enough to get me straight back on an alcohol free existence. Historically I would have spiralled into drinking from the shame.
my friend said I was clearly drunk and silly but didn’t do anything terrible. She was a bit freaked out by me having no memory of half the night as said I was talking pretty normally till I went down like a sack of spuds.
I spent a good few days berating myself for being a useless, embarrassing fool but decided that the best way to move on was to not drink.
I just felt like I wanted to post for a bit of accountability and also to anyone enjoying a booze free existence who is tempted to try moderation again save yourself the inevitable trouble of failing the test!