On 2nd March I decided enough was enough and finished that last bottle. I had been slipping gradually more and more and was drinking a bottle a night at least 5 nights a week. I couldn't get up in the mornings and felt just ridiculously ashamed. Sitting in on my own drinking wine night after night!
I've gradually been on a journey to being healthier. Gave up smoking 117 days ago which was an achievement after 30 years on and off nearly! Started reading more and some meditation in the new year and now it is time for the alcohol to go.
I cannot believe the difference I feel after a month and how much alcohol was affecting my life without realising. I sleep so much better, I wake up before my alarm more often than not, I'm so much more focused at work and most importantly I am more present for my kids now rather than wanting to just get to my wine.
I never said that it would be forever, just maybe for special occasions etc. I did have one glass of wine one night when i went to the theatre and to be honest I struggled to drink it. It just doesn't hold the same appeal as it did before so who knows if I will ever drink again. The thought of a hangover and/or toxifying my body just isn't something I want to do now.
Next on the list for my improvement is either diet or exercise as both areas are in a poor state! Going to be kind to myself for at least another month first though with going AF so I'm shocking my body gradually with one vice at a time 🤣