Hi I am a 39 yo married with 3 teenagers. I have always been a bit of a drinker. Wine mainly. Throughout my 20s when the kids were young I was really into the wine. White / red/rose. I drank throughout the week and never missed a weekend. Don’t know how I got through sleepless nights with the kids. Lockdown came and drunk even more so after lockdown I quite for a few months. Felt amazing. Got back on it again slowly but surely before Xmas. Ever since quitting Iv had this guilt every time I drink and overthink it. I have gradually built it back up again. Wednesday or Thursday and defo fri,sat, Sunday. I just can’t do it anymore. It’s depressing me. I have drink last week wed,Thursday ,Friday,Saturday and Sunday. Got up Monday and I felt like I had been hit by a bus. I felt, tired, groggy, bloated, disgusted, my skin looks terrible and I feel so down about it. I know I feel better when I don’t drink so why do I do it?!!!!! Me and DH are going out on Friday to a concert. I am determined to not drink. Never went out and not drank ever(unless when pregnant). So I think if I can do that and go in at the deep end I can do anything! I need to stop the “house drinking” also. It’s too easy and now my kids are saying “oh your always drinking” and I’m so embarrassed. My hubby can take or leave the drink so if I stop he would quite happily too. Need some tips! Any good podcasts etc to listen too? I am determined to do this!!!!