I'm having a panic attack :(

[cherrytree23]

I just need to let this out before I do something stupid.

I suffer chronic anxiety and last
Night stupidly drank quite a bit of alcohol.
Did something I regret and now I'm shaking and crying and In a state.
I'm alone as my child is at a sleepover and I am writing on here as to try and stop myself from calling my ex boyfriend for support which I do every single time I've drank the night before.
And I don't want to as we broke up and things aren't good.

😣

I'm so stupid I keep saying I won't be drinking Again as I know it causes me panic attacks. And I'm going to go sober.

I'm here.

Let's talk for a little while.

Is there anything beautiful/happy making that you can think of to tell me about?

Might help to take the edge off.

When I can't sleep at this time of year I watch Hallmark Christmas films. They're so bad it's funny.

Last year I managed to find a couple that were actually good!

If there isn't anything time critical that you need to do now, drink some milk or water, put on some relaxing TV or music or funny videos and try to sleep. When you're up, have a hot shower, get dressed, eat some toast or something and assess the damage.
Ask yourself if what happened will matter in a year or five? Remember when you did something worse? Keep it in perspective.
Of course if you've killed someone you need to go to police. If it's embarrassing yourself, you will get over it eventually.

I’m sorry you’re suffering OP. I’ve always found a hot bath can take the edge off the morning after. Be gentle with yourself and know that you have done your best and today you will do a bit better. Have some toast and tea.

Thanks so much both.
You don't even
Realise how much i appreciate you both taking the time to reply to me. 😭
I kissed someone I shouldn't have even though I'm single I still have the sense of guilt for my ex and I know that the irrational thinking and extreme anxiety caused by alcohol. I'm not entirely blaming alcohol but I would never have behaved that way sober.
I'm in bed and can't sleep but I'm going to go to make some tea.

@AutumnSolace
Christmas films are such a good shout! Thankyou ❤️

Poor you OP, anxiety is the worst.

Distraction is your friend here. Are there any series you can watch (ideally one with plenty of episodes) to distract you?

I also find grounding techniques really useful. Here's one that is simple but effective.

I watched White Christmas for the first time recently and absolutely loved it. It’s an oldie but it’s very good and the singing is wonderful. X

Perfect time to watch the first one of the season! 🎄🎄

Cup of tea and some toast will do you the world of good.

Thankyou. I'm at a point where All
Alcohol does is destroy my mood, makes me do things I shouldn't or wouldn't ever do. Time n time again I'm not learning that it's the alcohol. But this is it now I'm going to try going sober x

Hope you can relax and rest now.

This is MN at its best.

@whatapavlovapalaver it really is! N I'm so grateful 🥲

Ny mind n my heart is racing. But I'm going to try and sleep xx

I've been there OP!
It will all be okay, I promise. This time tomorrow it will have faded into insignificance.
I had a lot of episodes like yours until I couldn't go on any more and I stopped drinking. Six years on and there are still many mornings when I wake up luxuriating in the fact that I don't have a hangover. If you want to do it, there is lots of support.

For now, just concentrate on making it through the day till bed time. Treats and nice things, just as if you were poorly.

This too shall pass 💐

Sending you soothing thoughts. Panic attacks are horrible. I hope you can best today and do things that make you feel snug and safe.

I often feel a bit anxious the day after drinking. Alcohol does mean things to the brain and it can take a while for it to leave your body .

You did nothing wrong and you deserve a lovely day.

It's the fear. Happens to a lot of people when the alcohol starts to wear off. Try and have a small bit of food and some water and try to distract yourself

When I have an anxious attack (mind racing and spiralling negative thoughts abd worries) which stops me sleeping i watch YouTube videos with a big sensory component.

I started watching extreme rug cleaning. The rugs are black with filth and then scrubbed and squeezed and all the dirt comes out leaving the rug looking like new. Its incredibly satisfying if rather weird😅

OP you did nothing wrong. It sounds like the ex is not what you need right now anyway. Maybe you're emotionally dependent on him though and that can be hard to let go of. All you did was kiss someone while single, that is ok. You don't need to feel guilty.

Are you medicating with alcohol? Using it to block out your upset over the relationship maybe? Can you talk to someone you trust and get some support so you don't feel so dependent on the ex? Maybe you could also do with some help with your MH.

I hope you managed to get some rest though and feel better today, be gentle with yourself.

It won’t seem such a big deal tomorrow as it does today and in a week it’ll have faded. The more days that pass from the last drinking session the better you’ll feel x

Today is a new day, you can try to not drink again tonight.

This feeling will pass, but riding the wave is terrible. But know it's temporary.

I used to have terrible beer fear the day, and days after drinking. I was medicated for anxiety. I went sober, it was tough to start but after a month or so got much easier. Now I don't have anxiety! It was the alcohol..

Even if you can't sleep, lay in bed with a hot water bottle and some fan noises on your phone, it'll help guide the racing thoughts away.

24 hours later and I'm so much better, a bit tired but I just want to say Thankyou SO MUCH to everyone who reached out and gave me support!

It was beer fear and it made me feel like horrendous but I'm looking into moderation or complete sobriety eventually.
Again thanks so much again for everyone x

That's great thank you for the update. 😁look after yourself, still plenty of hydration and an early night.

Hiya. I swear I'm not banging an evangelical drum here but moderation is not worth it if it effects you this way. Sobriety feels totally not do-able but I swear to God, if I can do it, anyone can. It's totally life changing...