I did something utterly awful whilst on a booze bender

[SecretShambles]

.. which upset a lot of people and got me asked to leave the group of a hobby/ interest where I was at an event.

I made a stupid decision whilst very drunk and somehow convinced myself it would be OK.

It ended up with everyone in the group having a vote whether to kick me out or not. The majority voted to kick me out.

I feel so stupid, ashamed and embarrassed. This has to be a watershed moment, right?

I'm a weekend binge drinker, not a daily drinker but I'd had about 6 pints when this happened and then more after.

I've never done something with such consequences whilst under the influence before. I regret it every day.

Yes, a watershed moment.

I would send a heartfelt message to the group apologising. Don’t do it to try and get back in, do it simply because it is the right thing to do and you can then forget your embarrassment and start looking forwards.

Get help, support, a MN thread or whatever will work, focus on your health and looking after yourself. Find other activity that involves you in a constructive way with others.

I think it you let it be a watershed moment and make changes after, then hopefully it can have been a negative thing that resulted in a positive outcome.

I agree with the previous posters.

Find some support. Many good places online for support in this matter.
I wish you all the best moving forward!

Agree with others - be kind to yourself and try to use the regret for the good - you never ever want to it to happen again and it’s in your power to make that come true.

Thanks everyone

I have apologised to the leader of the group in writing who sent a nice reply accepting my apology. But as what I did was deemed a breach of trust ( I blabbed something big to someone ) it was seen as too big to come back from.

I will need to find a new social life as most of my social activities were through this group and I'd begun to make some good friends there and feel established. I feel like I sabotaged everything but as PP have said, maybe I can use it as a force for good.

I've not binge drunk since the incident which was a couple of weeks ago. Just 1 or 2 drinks on a few evenings. Last night I went out and only had soft drinks and I didn't find myself craving. It meant I could save money on taxis too.

@SecretShambles - 💐 for you. Most of us problem drinkers have done at least one thing under the influence that we are utterly ashamed of - I know I have (quite a few). Fortunately for me, it’s been with family and “true” friends who have helped me and supported me - no judgement of the people in your group I just mean that it’s a different dynamic when you are a bit sort of removed from others, for want of a better word.

as others have said, let this be a watershed moment to help you sort out your drinking and move forward. Shame only holds you where you are and hinders positive changes. So accept you’ve stuffed up, forgive yourself and move forward. And definitely knock the binge drinking on the head!

That's a good thing, that you apologized, and that your apology was accepted. Even though you cannot return to the group, it will be easier for you to move forward having apologized.

Sometimes we make mistakes. It's human.
You can move on from this! I am rooting for you.