My husband went into rehab over 3 years ago after I threw him out of the house when the booze had completely taken over and he had become a person I didn’t recognise. I got the Police to remove him because he refused to leave. I loved him (still do, but I’m no one’s fool), but honestly believed that we’d never be together again and he’d drink himself to death. Turned out he was shocked - he said he never thought I’d do it. He arranged rehab himself and was successful. He has OCD, so once he has an opinion, it tends to be solid and he became certain that alcohol was the devil and he never wanted to touch it again. I’m not naive, but I thought his OCD may be protective.
We are scheduled to go on a very expensive (out of pension savings) holiday of a life time on Saturday morning. I have seen signs in him over the last few days, that he’s been drinking. He denied it of course. The signs were subtle and I didn’t want to believe it, so let it go. I could see it more clearly today and he admitted it, saying it had been ‘a few weeks’ (bearing in mind that minimise and delusional are the alcoholics middle names). It seems it started with him drinking after I went to bed (I am tired much earlier than him) and pretty quickly progressed to him drinking (spirits) from the morning. I feel devastated. We’ve been happier this last three years than ever before (been together 15 years, married 8). It may seem trivial, but I’ve been so looking forward to this amazing holiday. It’s too late to cancel and get any money back. I so wanted us to share it together. I’m in shock at the moment, as I just didn’t see it coming. I feel crushed.