Recently posted about starting a new healthier life. I've been trying really hard to lose weight which has invoked not drinking and fasting/cutting out unhealthy food. I've actually found not drinking in the week easier than I thought I would. Before this I was drinking a bottle of wine a night. However I've been giving myself weekends off and still drinking. I've done the same again this weekend and I just feel so ashamed/disappointed in myself. I want better for my DC and for myself.
When I haven't been drinking my mood has been much better, I've felt better in terms of sleep and health and just generally feel happier. Then on Thursday I had an event and drank wine, and it's carried on until tonight. I want to stop completely now, why does it always tempt you back in?
The stupid thing is my reason for not stopping recently has been that I don't want to have that horrible feeling of not being able to get to sleep... but the reality is I have an awful night sleep when I've drank.
Determined to stop tomorrow and not give in again.