50 days sober today

[LucyLou96]

I have been sober for 50 days today, the longest I've gone in a while. I thought quitting would make me feel physically wonderful by now, but I don't feel much better. I'm tired all the time, a bit depressed, eat loads of junk food to make up for the lack of alcohol, I'm only slightly less anxious, and I'm still getting stomach / side pains around where my liver is. In fact the pains are getting worse and more frequent as time goes by.

Has anyone else had this or am I just so early into recovery I'm not seeing the benefits yet? Could my liver have random pains because it's healing?? I am still too scared to see a doctor about any of this in case they come back and tell me I'm dying and I left it too late to quit alcohol

You're doing really well, be proud. It sounds getting help for anxiety might be worthwhile. Were you possibly masking anxiety with alcohol use previously. I don't mean to criticise, I'm currently struggling with this myself. Please get help for the anxiety and root cause. You really are doing so well.

Congratulations on 50 days AF!

It’s disappointing isn’t it, you expect to feel amazing but don’t? I know there were times in the early days where I was thinking I felt better when I was drinking!

TBF junk food can leave you feeling less than brilliant. I craved and ate sugary things because my body was trying to replace the sugar I was now missing from the alcohol but I figured it was better to stop the alcohol and deal with the diet once I was happily AF.
You have done the best thing possible for your health by giving up, the liver can heal itself remarkably quickly after giving up alcohol. As you are worrying anyway, possibly needlessly, wouldn’t it be better to discuss things with the Dr & request a blood test?

Hang on in there, you will feel better, it does just take time.

Focus on your success. A bit at a time try to improve your diet. Maybe start by trying new things. 50 days is brilliant, I’m nowhere near that.

Set a date in future when you you will get a blood test. Then mentally park it and focus on carrying on your strength

I'm so impressed. 50 days. That's absolutely brilliant. Keep going!

1 day at a time. You can do this.

I hear you . I’m roughly 100 days af (since 28th November) but I don’t really feel any better. I thought I would feel amazing, but my skins just as bad (probably a bit worse ) I am about 5lb lighter , but being a large weight to start with 5lb is neither here nor there.

Congrats on 50 days sober.

Take a photo of yourself now and compare it to one when you were drinking and then compare it to one in another 50 days when you've cut down the alcohol. You will probably see difference then.

But dont forget the damage to your skin and body wasn't done overnight, so it won't be cured over night. Also dont forget that the little voce saying "you're looking and feeling worse" might well be your addiction. Ignore it and keep on doing what you're doing. Whatever you look like, you'd look worse with drink.

Well done OP. I'm on 60 odd days myself and feel only marginally better. I have heard many people saying that they feel much better from 100 days in. I'm giving it 6 months to see.

I put on weight through sugar cravings too but have just started a low carb high fat diet today to knock that on the head. I should feel like a fucking saint but if I do sainthood isn't all that.

You are doing soooooo well.

I am jealous - seriously.

cut out the junk food, get some good vitamins and eat better - then you will feel sparkly 😁xx

Impressed!
Liver pains will be from processing the carbs and sugar you’re mainlining. Try a 5 day detox. Long gaps between food no snacking.
Giving up things is depressing. Alanis Morrisette did a great song “ these are the reason I drink”. “The grove has gotten so deep” is very true. A couple of months after years of drinking is a blip in your way of thinking.
But your liver will be in much better shape. Your brain will be rewiring. You are doing a fantastic job so don’t throw in the towel.

Super well done OP.
I am on day 80 AF. Can't quite blimmin believe it after years of daily drinking.
I, like you, also don't feel that different. I haven't lost any weight whatsoever and am not sure I look any better. I'm not eating more than usual either and to top the no alcohol I've also given up chocolate and butter. What joy 😂
I do feel splendid waking up with no guilt/anxiety nor hangover. However, I actually seemed to do more exercise when I was drinking!!
Not sure what is going on. Maybe body just adapting. I have been much more focused in life and a bit more grateful and productive. I've also learnt to respect and value life fully and love spending time with my family and children alcohol free. Can't believe I wasted so many years on it.
I don't plan to drink again, am happy being the sober one when out and am living life more to the full. However, the lack of generally feeling "amazing" is a little disappointing 😂 xx keep going, we are doing great! Xx