Blown it !

[Scoley76]

Blown it on day 14.....gutted 😪
Ive been honest and told my partner. Not that he needed to be told because he can always tell. The positives are that It was only one bottle of wine and not multiples but that doesn't stop the disappointment I feel.
My patner Is really not okay with it. He doesn't want to be with " a drunk ! ". He even threw my valentine roses in the bin 😪. I get it though, it's more than just the drinking to him. I've done some really unforgivable things when drunk so he's now got paranoia, stress and anxiety about the whole situation. I wish I could take all that away for him. I've seriously put our 9 year relationship through some crap over the years. Saying that though, I do wish he could see all of this through my eyes sometimes 😢xx

Well…. Today is a new day. Well done for making a start. 💐

Are you doing this all by yourself or do you have support?
Do you know your triggers?
Why did you drink?
How many units were you drinking per week prior to this?

Hi suzi888.
I have been in touch with the gp and have a number I can call but to be honest I find this group better.
I was drinking on average 2 bottles 3- 4 times a week.
I think I drank because It was payday and I was home alone. Boredom and definitely being on my own seems to be a trigger x

You've not blown it. Your reaction makes it clear it was a misstep...just stick to the path...you've done 14 days, had a blip, regretted it....now starts the next sober stretch.

You’re not unforgivable

It's a blip you've done well doing 14 days

You've only blown it if you now carry on drinking. Otherwise it was just a blip, and they will happen, just hopefully less and less often.

It was a blip. You are sorry. Dust yourself down and start counting again. How did you feel the next morning? Bad? Keep remembering that. Best of luck OP