Hi all. Hope looking after yourselves.
Adding background, for context. I have had an "unhealthy" but completely hidden relationship with Alcohol for approx. 11 years. I used alcohol initially to boost my confidence socially & professionally in my 20s - I'm ashamed to say I used to secretly drink at work to get me through stressful meetings where I'd have to present/lead with confidence - else I'd get embarrassed, go red and stumble.
I have drunk most days for 11 years aside from during pregnancies and the odd shot of "Dry Jan" or trying to have 2-3 days alcohol free a week. I would say however that I have drunk, on average, 30-40 units per week.
Most of my drinking is secret - a swig of wine or shot of spirit. Putting alcohol in disguised vessels such as coffee cups in the evening so my family think it's just a cup of tea. Using it in the evenings to 'get through' bath/bed time routine with kids. Using it as both something to keep me upbeat and sociable and also as a relaxant. I would say I have been a highly functional alcoholic during this time. I am a great mum otherwise (IMO). I have NOT used alcohol during the working week during the daytime for about 7 years now. However, weekends I often start drinking earlier in the day.
I have somehow managed to keep ALL of this hidden from my family and friends. My husband thinks I hardly drink.
I can hold alcohol well and drink with my husband and friends weekend evenings and on holidays, parties etc. However, I have had the odd black-out over the last few years so know on occasion I do take it too far. I also have obviously experienced poor sleep, dehydration and bad hangovers (regularly) over this time & hidden them. I often have said to myself I will give it up / not drink today etc. etc. but never manage it.
Until now. Currently 10 days sober. I am committed to OYNB (one year no beer). This is a challenge. I've had a health shock and honestly feel it is due to my drinking. I want to be here to see my children grow up. I cannot believe I have wasted so much time to alcohol.
Health issue raised is INCREDIBLY itchy skin. Arms, legs, chest and face. Am using some medicated cream which is helping and generally the itchiness is calming.
I had my bloods done - these are the results attached. I was incredibly stressed all over Xmas waiting the results and thinking I'd done some serious damage / was dying. I'd also been experiencing some lower back pain, possibly kidneys. I know blood tests can't really tell liver damage and I know I may still have caused irreparable damage. The doctor's receptionist told me the results are 'Satisfactory' - no further action needed. You can see my ALT score is out of range slightly. Any blood experts tell me anything else looking not great?
I'm stopping drinking. Will ask for more bloods later this year to compare.
Thanks for reading & good luck to anyone else doing Dry Jan etc. I'm finding podcasts and recording my progress is helping.