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I relapsed

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EWJ · 03/12/2022 18:30

I almost died twice a this year. I was in the ICU for a month and then again a month later when I had a seizure at my job. I quit drinking and was sober for about 2 months. I don't know why I relapsed because nothing bad happened to me. There was no reason, I just did. I got in deep again. I want to quit so bad. I'm just so scared of the withdrawals. I know it sounds crazy, but I literally spent a night with this group of magicians that were messing with me and we were all singing songs on my back porch when I tried to go cold turkey, but they weren't even real. It was just me going through delirium. I know this isn't the smartest idea, but I'm just going to try to slowly ween myself off. I can't handle the confinement of the hospital. I dk, I'm an idiot for getting myself in this situation. I just felt like reaching out so no one else goes through this. It is hell.

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MichaelFabricantWig · 03/12/2022 21:53

I think you really need medical help x

billycorn · 03/12/2022 21:58

Big hugs, you can do it. Accept the fact you may be more more successful with more support.

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EWJ · 03/12/2022 22:20

Thanks bro

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Mybestyear · 04/12/2022 20:52

EWJ · 03/12/2022 22:20

Thanks bro

@EWJ - how you doing today?

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EWJ · 04/12/2022 21:27

I'm good man, thanks for asking. I know that it all comes down to me. There's no one that can stop me from just going to the store and picking up a drink. I'm an honest person, besides when it comes to alcohol. I will lie to my family, friends, and coworkers that care about me in order to get it. It helps in weird sense to ramble about it to people I don't know, because I really don't won't the people I care about to worry about me. I dk, it's selfish of me. I just feel like I let everyone down after I got sober and went back. I don't want any sympathy, it just is what it is.

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onedayiwillflyaway1 · 04/12/2022 22:46

If you don't mind me asking, how much are you drinking a day? What is your plan?
Hope you're doing OK today.

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EWJ · 05/12/2022 07:40

Around 4 black tall can colt 45's a day because they're cheap and strong. I know this is probably not the smartest idea, but I'm going to try and cut it down to 3 then 2 then one then half and then none very slowly. I just can't handle the confinement of the programs that I've done. Spoken like a major alcoholic.

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Tedjewell · 13/02/2023 16:02

Quit again, go to any lengths to quit, give it your all, admit powerlessness and surrender. What if you actually do die this time?

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