Morning (awake at 6.15 on a Sunday)!
I’ve been lurking on this board on and off for a couple of years, it’s been so helpful in respect of thinking about (not) drinking. I’ve drunk daily for 30 years; a bottle of red a night through uni and my twenties, more during a marriage to a VERY heavy drinker that ended in divorce, 2 disastrous relationships with drinkers… during the bad times, I definitely used alcohol (and drugs) to numb myself. During good times, well it’s fun innit? 🙄
Done a month AF a couple of times which has certainly changed the way I drink. The last year I’ve cut right down to 1 or 2 glasses of white wine with ice every night, but it has crept up and I’m fed up. I’m worried about the damage I might have already done after being a booze hound for so long, can’t afford it, hate my dry skin and puffy eyes and just need to change. I live alone so there’s no one to monitor me, although my current partner hardly drinks at all so he’s very useful :)
I’ve made some huge life-changing decisions over the past year and this is another: I’ve stopped drinking. Not saying never again but definitely want to change my whole mindset about this stupid habit. I don’t want to mindlessly drink alone any longer just as a full stop to the day. Day 10 today!! Sleep isn’t great but I’ve always had problems there (Zopiclone was my best friend at some points… washed down with a glass of wine) and I’m starting to suspect that alcohol was actually part of the issue. Who knew?!
Anyway, posting this morning because my partner has had some great news recently (before I stopped!) and has bought a lovely bottle of posh champagne for us to have with dinner tonight. Special occasions are the only time he drinks, and even then not in large amounts, and I don’t know what to do! Tell him I don’t want it? Seems churlish! Have a glass each and pour the rest down the sink like very expensive drain cleaner?! Or just drink it? Done a lot of quit lit and it’s working — I actually don’t really want to drink tonight!
Sorry for the essay. Some family members are very drinky so I haven’t really told anyone else what I’m doing because they’ll think it’s daft (“Oh, you hardly drink these days anyway!”). Just wanted to put it out there. Thanks for reading :)